Man, I Hate College

I applied to some colleges for the Fall 2011 semester a couple of weeks ago (go, me). Just some CUNY schools: Hunter, City College, York, and Baruch, although I'm hoping and praying for Hunter. But thinking about it is freaking me the FUCK out. Here's why.

1. I applied as a transfer, but now I'm wondering if that was a good idea. In case you didn't know, I didn't get speccctacular grades my first semester at Fordham (although they were all passing), but my second semester was an absolute FUCKING DISASTER. I'm pretty sure I got like...a B, a C, an F, an NGR, and an Absent. Yeah, really fucking disastrous. CUNY schools aren't just some shit school that will take anybody, they're decent fucking schools. And my GPA from Fordham is clearly NOT up to par. So maybe I should have just applied as a freshman. I don't know. I don't even know if I can change my application at this point. Even if they did accept me, I'd only have enough credits to be accepted as a second-semester freshman anyway, sooo...yeah. Suckage.

2. I have to fill out the FAFSA and get my transcript and move down there and all this crazy shit and just the thought is making me panicky.

3. The deadline to apply for the Fall 2011 semester is tomorrow. I didn't think I had to send in my transcript juuust yet, so I put it off. Now I just checked the website, and it says I need to have my application "and all supporting materials" in. What does that mean?? Does that mean my Fordham and Coleman transcripts?? What the fuck?? Will I have to wait till spring now?? AHHHH.

4. I don't even WANT to go back to school, particularly. I have literally no idea what I want to major in, what I want to study...I don't want to waste my time and money taking classes that I won't need, I'm not the type who just wants to be in school...that's the reason why I really really want to be in school next fall, because I know that if I don't go soon, I'll never go back. And I know that I have to go back because you neeeeed to go to college to be successful in our society, unless you have some natural gift or talent that you can live off of, which I most certainly do not. So I don't want to go back to school, but I have to, but I don't even know what I want to do, but it may not even matter because I might not be able to go till the spring anyway.

Fuck. This. Shit.

Fucking cheers,
GIM (no fucking heart today)

Words of the Day III

GOOD WORD
phantasmagoria - an exhibition of optical effects and illusions; a constantly shifting complex succession of things seen or imagined

BAD WORD
tendril - a leaf, stipule, or stem modified into a slender spirally coiling sensitive organ serving to attach a climbing plant to its support; something suggestive of a tendril

Why I Believe in Karma

Once upon a time, in my younger years, there was a certain girl who used to make my life miserable, because she was pretty and popular and I sooo wasn't at all. Now this certain girl is ugly and acne-ridden and absolutely retarded and I am much prettier than her and clear-skinned and not retarded (at least I like to flatter myself that these things are true). And while I certainly hope she has a good and successful life, I'll still never forget what an evil bitch she was, and I'm pretty happy that I am pretty much better than her in every way. THE END.

PS - There are definitely negative ways that karma has affected me, but we'll go into those another time. Yay.

Cheers,
GIM<3

Down in Da Dumpz

I feel like shit. General misery. Super sadness. It's no fun.

The thing is, it's all stemming from one particular thing, which is a thing that I can control and that I should be able to get over, but I can't. And it sucks. No matter how much I try to focus on the positive, I just can't.

I just lost ten pounds (yayyy)

I've actually been feeling relatively fantastic for the past month, as compared to my usual self

My life is just generally pretty good at the moment.

But still, this mild misery. How does one get over such a thing? How do you get up and out of the dumps? Do I just wait for it to blow over, or is there something specific that I should do? I've never been very good at this, so I really have no idea how to handle sadness.

In other news, I'm watching Brothers, and this movie is SO depressing, it is doing nothing for me. I cried 15 minutes in, and Lord knows I don't cry very often, especially at movies. Sigh.

Cheers,
GIM<3

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It's been months and months since I saw you last, but this song still makes me think of you.

It's the Academy Awahhhhdzz

Not that anyone cares, but these are just my personal predictions and hopes for this year's Oscars. What do you think, oh, limited readership of mine? Here's the list if you'd like to see: http://www.moviefone.com/oscars-academy-awards/nominee-winner


BEST PICTURE
What I want to win: Inception
What will probably win: The King's Speech

BEST DIRECTOR
Who I want to win: The Coen Brothers
Who will probably win: Tom Hooper or David Fincher

BEST ACTOR
Who I want to win: Colin Firth OR James Franco
Who will probably win: Colin Firth

BEST ACTRESS
Who I want to win: Natalie Portman
Who will probably win: Natalie Portman OR Michelle Williams

BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR
Who I want to win: Geoffrey Rush
Who will probably win: Geoffrey Rush OR Christian Bale

BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS
Who I want to win: Hailee Steinfeld OR Helena Bonham Carter
Who will probably win: Helena Bonham Carter

Words of the Day II

GOOD WORD
pilates - an exercise regimen typically performed with the use of specialized apparatus

BAD WORD
tofurkey - tofu made to taste and/or look like turkey meat